Today I got to be just a mom.
Not a fitness instructor. Not a friend to get together with. Not a mom zooming around. No clocks. No reminders. Just a mom.
And I loved it.
We hung out in our pjs all morning.
We made music in the kitchen with spice shakers, old wood spoons and the bottom of a grill pan.
I baked in the kitchen with Hunter at my feet.
We took a stroll to the grocery store for a few items, which actually turned into a run since the rain picked up getting Hunter a bit wet. Whoops!
There was lots of snuggling, reading books, and me getting a bit teary thinking about my little guy (hormones…).
It was a beautiful day and not like one we’ve had in a while.
I was scheduled to teach a class, but luckily found someone to cover it. I just needed a day. A day to just be a mom.
I can’t actually remember the last day I was just home with Hunter. No plans. I teach 1-2 classes a day, except on Sundays, but on that day Jacob is home and we have church, so it’s just not the same. With classes in the mix we’re always on a schedule.
I’ve always wanted to be a stay at home mom, and now that I am/have been, I realize, I don’t really stay home. Hunter and I are always on the go from one gym to another, or back home then out again. We run errands in between everything and occasionally throw in a play date, although those are becoming a bit of a rarity with these busy days.
My struggle: I love everything I do. All of my classes, all my participants. It’s what I’m passionate about! But what do I love more? Being a mom. I feel like I’m taking it for granded. This time when Hunter’s little and calls ‘maaa-maa’ when he’s sad or can’t see me is fleeting.
All this has been weighing on my heart lately. Lindsay’s post on no longer being a zoom zoom mom (<—– read it) brought it even closer to the front of my mind.
I don’t really have a plan for change. Maybe I’m just being a bit selfish with all my teaching. It’s what I want to do, not what I have to do. Do I need to make a change? Or maybe every once in a while I just need to take these days.
To just be a mom.
Because there really is nothing better.